Malee is one month old today!!!! She’s had some really critical days this past month in the NICU. But today she’s finally had a wonderful day. I’m still not able to hold her so for me it’s still rather rough. I know she’ll probably be in NICU for four more months. But I feel like if I could at least hold her things wouldn’t seem so scary and uncertain. Since she was born 16 weeks early I haven’t been able to hold her, kiss her, feed her…. nothing. I have however been allowed to change her dirty diapers hahaha I guess that’s something. She lays in a box outside of my reach. Outside of my comfort. I am however happy to report that doctors have started the whining process. She’s been on a ventilator since birth to help her breath and she’s finally at a point where they are wanting to start whining her off. I’m so excited and happy for her. Her little lungs are growing and she will be breathing on her own, hopefully, soon. She still has a long four months to go. But I feel so blessed that she’s made it this far.
February 28, 2021
So today I went to a support group where I was able to meet other moms who had NICU babies. It was nothing like I thought it would be, but everything that I needed. It felt so good to be surrounded by other moms who understood how it felt to be a NICU mom. I didn’t have to try to explain how I felt because they went through the same thing I’m going through. And even though they might not have the same story as me they were able to understand me when I talked. I didn’t have to pause to explain doctor terms or hospital lingo because they know was “the box” means. (The box is when the baby needs to be re-intubebated so a nurse with being the kit that has everything they need to Re-intubate) one of the women told me that she was so amazed at how joyful I seemed and that I should start a blog so that other family who may be going through the same thing can hopefully seek me at as a friendly ear or shoulder to cry on. And family and friends who have NICU mom friends can maybe come to this blog and be able to understand a little bit what we go through. So here i am. Hoping to make friends and spread some joy.
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